I've been dreading writing this post because it is really hard to do. I still feel such sadness over our adoption falling through in January, and I think about what our little guy might be doing right now, how old he is, what stage of development he is in...I'm still grieving not getting to bring him home.
Our home study expires this week, and after discussing it a lot, looking at our options, looking at the events of 2015 so far in our lives, and looking at what the rest of 2015 might be like, Joey and I have decided to not update our home study at this time. It has been a really rough year for us so far, and we are still dealing with a difficult situation that changed some of our plans for this year, including updating our home study.
So our plan as we move forward, since we both still really have a desire to adopt, is to wait until Gus is a little bit older and try to adopt through becoming foster parents. We still want to adopt two children so if we could adopt siblings at one time, that would be wonderful. If we need to adopt at different times, then we will do that, too. I trust that if it's God's plan for us to adopt like we desire to do, then it will work out in His timing. Right now, we don't think it's the right time. Hopefully next year we can start the process to become licensed foster care parents. I waited a long time for my amazing husband so I am hopeful that this time of waiting will only make adopting in the future that much more wonderful when it does happen.
We would appreciate your continued prayers. This decision has not been an easy one, and I feel very heartbroken about it, but Joey and I both think it's the right decision for right now.
Once we begin the foster care licensing process, we will let you know so that you can be praying. From talking with others who have been through it, there is a lot that goes into the process so it will take some time. Our prayer is that once we are licensed and begin getting placements, God will bring children into our home that need a forever family. Thank you to everyone who supported us through our adoption process last year and who continue to understand our grief over not getting to bring Baby Goldsmith home in January. We are thankful for our friends and family who have been there with us through both the excitement and the sadness.
Tuesday, July 21, 2015
Tuesday, March 31, 2015
Where We Are...
It's been a long time since I updated our blog. To be honest, it's been a difficult last two months. It's hard to even know what to write. Finding out on January 26th that our little boy's birth mom had delivered him and had decided to keep him was not the beginning to 2015 that we had hoped for, planned for, nor anticipated. The same morning that we found out that we would not be bringing our little boy home, we also found out that Claudia would be moving to Virginia in March. It felt like we lost two kids at the same time. We trust that God has a plan in all of this and that the hurt will not be for nothing.
We are continuing in our adoption journey and are currently waiting to be matched again. The waiting is really difficult, and it seems to get harder for me the longer we wait. I long for Gus to have a little brother or sister. Actually, we hope that he will have both eventually.
We hope that before 2015 is over, we will have another member to the Goldsmith family. We hope to go from a family of 4 to a family of 5. We just have to wait and see. Once we are matched again, we will need to fundraise again because we lost a good portion of what we raised with the adoption falling through. It's discouraging to say the least, but we both still desire so much to adopt so we are not ready to give up.
We would appreciate your prayers as we move forward. I desire to be content where God has us, but that is oftentimes a struggle for me right now. There are things to celebrate...the time that we do have with Claudia, our sweet Gus, Joey and I getting through tough times together, wonderful family and friends, a church that reminds us that Jesus has us.
As I said when I started this update, it's hard to know what to write. Thanks to everyone who has been so supportive to us during this difficult time. We appreciate it so much! Amidst the sorrow and grief, our friends and family have been such an encouragement to us. So thank you!
We are continuing in our adoption journey and are currently waiting to be matched again. The waiting is really difficult, and it seems to get harder for me the longer we wait. I long for Gus to have a little brother or sister. Actually, we hope that he will have both eventually.
We hope that before 2015 is over, we will have another member to the Goldsmith family. We hope to go from a family of 4 to a family of 5. We just have to wait and see. Once we are matched again, we will need to fundraise again because we lost a good portion of what we raised with the adoption falling through. It's discouraging to say the least, but we both still desire so much to adopt so we are not ready to give up.
We would appreciate your prayers as we move forward. I desire to be content where God has us, but that is oftentimes a struggle for me right now. There are things to celebrate...the time that we do have with Claudia, our sweet Gus, Joey and I getting through tough times together, wonderful family and friends, a church that reminds us that Jesus has us.
As I said when I started this update, it's hard to know what to write. Thanks to everyone who has been so supportive to us during this difficult time. We appreciate it so much! Amidst the sorrow and grief, our friends and family have been such an encouragement to us. So thank you!
Monday, January 12, 2015
While We Wait...
It has been a while since we updated everyone on our adoption journey. We are in the home stretch! We have raised the money needed for our adoption thanks to many of you as well as some wonderful organizations that support adoption and award grants. We are thankful the fundraising is complete. Now we are waiting to get that call (in our case it will be a text message) saying it is time. Joey and I will drop everything and head towards the hospital.
I have a bag packed and ready along with all of the things that I can think of that we might need for our travel back to Greenville with our little guy. He is due January 23rd, and we can't wait to meet him!
Please pray for our family as we wait. The waiting is hard, and I think it will only get harder once we get the text from our little guy's birth mom saying that it is time. I can only imagine that our time at the hospital will be a mixture of excitement, fear, nervousness, and exhaustion. .
This has been a surreal experience so far. Overall, the adoption process for us has gone very smoothly. I pray that it continues that way. Sadly, we have had to let some relationships go as a result of our choosing this path, and that has been very difficult for us. We are grieving those relationships but rejoicing in gaining a sweet little boy soon. I can't wait to hold him for the first time!
We are SO thankful for the tremendous amount of support and encouragement we have received and continue to receive during this journey. We look forward to introducing our little guy to you soon. :)
I have a bag packed and ready along with all of the things that I can think of that we might need for our travel back to Greenville with our little guy. He is due January 23rd, and we can't wait to meet him!
Please pray for our family as we wait. The waiting is hard, and I think it will only get harder once we get the text from our little guy's birth mom saying that it is time. I can only imagine that our time at the hospital will be a mixture of excitement, fear, nervousness, and exhaustion. .
This has been a surreal experience so far. Overall, the adoption process for us has gone very smoothly. I pray that it continues that way. Sadly, we have had to let some relationships go as a result of our choosing this path, and that has been very difficult for us. We are grieving those relationships but rejoicing in gaining a sweet little boy soon. I can't wait to hold him for the first time!
We are SO thankful for the tremendous amount of support and encouragement we have received and continue to receive during this journey. We look forward to introducing our little guy to you soon. :)
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