Tuesday, March 31, 2015

Where We Are...

It's been a long time since I updated our blog.  To be honest, it's been a difficult last two months.  It's hard to even know what to write.  Finding out on January 26th that our little boy's birth mom had delivered him and had decided to keep him was not the beginning to 2015 that we had hoped for, planned for, nor anticipated.  The same morning that we found out  that we would not be bringing our little boy home, we also found out that Claudia would be moving to Virginia in March.  It felt like we lost two kids at the same time.  We trust that God has a plan in all of this and that the hurt will not be for nothing. 

We are continuing in our adoption journey and are currently waiting to be matched again.  The waiting is really difficult, and it seems to get harder for me the longer we wait.  I long for Gus to have a little brother or sister.  Actually, we hope that he will have both eventually. 

We hope that before 2015 is over, we will have another member to the Goldsmith family.  We hope to go from a family of 4 to a family of 5.  We just have to wait and see.  Once we are matched again, we will need to fundraise again because we lost a good portion of what we raised with the adoption falling through.  It's discouraging to say the least, but we both still desire so much to adopt so we are not ready to give up.

We would appreciate your prayers as we move forward.  I desire to be content where God has us, but that is oftentimes a struggle for me right now.  There are things to celebrate...the time that we do have with Claudia, our sweet Gus, Joey and I getting through tough times together, wonderful family and friends, a church that reminds us that Jesus has us.  

As I said when I started this update, it's hard to know what to write.  Thanks to everyone who has been so supportive to us during this difficult time.  We appreciate it so much!  Amidst the sorrow and grief, our friends and family have been such an encouragement to us.  So thank you!