I've been dreading writing this post because it is really hard to do. I still feel such sadness over our adoption falling through in January, and I think about what our little guy might be doing right now, how old he is, what stage of development he is in...I'm still grieving not getting to bring him home.
Our home study expires this week, and after discussing it a lot, looking at our options, looking at the events of 2015 so far in our lives, and looking at what the rest of 2015 might be like, Joey and I have decided to not update our home study at this time. It has been a really rough year for us so far, and we are still dealing with a difficult situation that changed some of our plans for this year, including updating our home study.
So our plan as we move forward, since we both still really have a desire to adopt, is to wait until Gus is a little bit older and try to adopt through becoming foster parents. We still want to adopt two children so if we could adopt siblings at one time, that would be wonderful. If we need to adopt at different times, then we will do that, too. I trust that if it's God's plan for us to adopt like we desire to do, then it will work out in His timing. Right now, we don't think it's the right time. Hopefully next year we can start the process to become licensed foster care parents. I waited a long time for my amazing husband so I am hopeful that this time of waiting will only make adopting in the future that much more wonderful when it does happen.
We would appreciate your continued prayers. This decision has not been an easy one, and I feel very heartbroken about it, but Joey and I both think it's the right decision for right now.
Once we begin the foster care licensing process, we will let you know so that you can be praying. From talking with others who have been through it, there is a lot that goes into the process so it will take some time. Our prayer is that once we are licensed and begin getting placements, God will bring children into our home that need a forever family. Thank you to everyone who supported us through our adoption process last year and who continue to understand our grief over not getting to bring Baby Goldsmith home in January. We are thankful for our friends and family who have been there with us through both the excitement and the sadness.